Due Dates

As the due date for Samira approaches my heart is heavy and I am so sad! I keep thinking would she have been early or late. What time of day would she come. I also think about having her here. The other day I went through the nursery as we also have been using it for a guest bedroom. I put a few things away and could not help but was thinking, what am I doing, I should be putting the finishing touches on the nursery not putting things away. I had a quiet momment by myself and sat a cried. I know everything is in God's hands and there was a plan and reason for her passing but sometimes it is hard to understand and wrap my head around. I am so thankful for my support group, MEND. I have learned that what I feel is normal and there are lots of people going through so much! On a happy note my cousin went into have her baby boy Maxumis Robert today, so we are waiting to hear when he is born and one other friend announced she was pregnant. GOd is good!!